About: Feelings and Emotions
This is not about emotions in general. Just a perspective of me about me… to trigger that thought in you about you, if we feel the same… emotionless.
I used to think I’m a feelingless person. I could feel that I had feelings, only when I felt anger or irritation. Never closely observe if I felt sadness and happines. I was a kind of a thing.
But something changed many years back. And I could feel happiness and sadness. But it chagned again back to the old.
But something changed in the last two years. And I could feel happiness, sadness and anxiety. But it all changed again back to the old old. Now (Early 2024), bringing me back to the thing I was many years ago.
Now that I think of myself (a few weeks later). I feel that I have feelings… emotions. But I’m still an emotion less person.
It seems everyone else is too emotional. I’m just very less when compared.
When I look at the world now (compared to my childhood), somehow the world has chagned. The world is now more emotional and sensitive then it previously was… loaded with loads of feelings (or is it just the world in my world… god knows :) ).
Why is everyone so much more emotional now !!
Maybe I an at the same level of emotions as I was many many years ago. Just that everyone else has become more emotional. Maybe if there was a scale of emotions, I’m where I was years ago. Just that everyone else seems to have moved up on the scale.
So maybe what would have been normal emotional earlier is now in the category of emotionless.
It seems just like how a normal person has normal skin… and then there are people with sensitive skin. Just that now everyone has sensitive skin and the slightest thing can cause weird sorts on allergic response.
But I still seem to have normal skin. And I’m maybe afraid of people with sensitive skin.
Afraid… emotion being used as a shield and a weapon to demonize the one with less emotion.
I’m not an emotionless person… I’m just one with less emotions. I do care for people, but just that it feels more of a duty than an emotion.
And this emotionless state comes and goes away, comes aand goes awayyyy……
